I used to fear answering the phone…
And now I interview people on a daily basis.
But not everyday is easy.
My anxiety comes in waves,
Sometimes it only sweeps across the shore,
And other time it crashes into my chest until I can’t breath.
Sometimes it’s just a nagging thought,
Other times, it comes with nausea, pain, tears and fear.
One day I’m fine
And the next I’m afraid to leave my room.
Sometimes for hours,
Other times for days.
Falling victim to the ghost,
I used to hide beneath my blankets.
By avoiding confrontation,
I allow the anxiety to keep me company.
But once I began learning
How to swim when those waves crashed against me,
I learned how to keep my head above water in the tough times
And appreciate the easy times much more.
By counting my blessings, shifting my mind, and talking about the anxiety,
I can let go of some it and ease with my mind.
It's not about a cure, it's about learning to cope.